My sister Susie

My first memories is sitting in the window desperately looking towards the school waiting for my sister to come home. I am sure I was around 2 or 3. we lived on the second floor in an apartment. I think my dad was a truck driver but not sure. We lived at that time in Van Etten, New York. My sister Susie passed away today. I miss her and seems like it was not that long ago we were kids. Sue was 3 years older than I , we were friends in many ways. It seems as I look back she was always there for me in the most important times in my life. When we plucked my eye brows, ouch....dated when I was just a kid myself. ...I ran away from a alcoholic mother and lived with her and her husband. help take care of her three little kids. I see us drinking together , eating shrimp and doing laundry. We certainly did our running around in many ways....always eating something and laughing. she would watch my oldest kid at the time. While I worked and went out. She tried to be the best sister and mother she knew how. We got out self in trouble more than once and helped each other out more than that. My mother died when we were in out early 20's...sad time in both our lives...never had much backing from adults so we clung to each other ...Sue was always there for each one of 6 brothers and sisters...Her boyfriend and her made sure we all had a place to sleep even if it were on the floor...never turned us away....I miss her than and miss her now. When I remarried we seem to drift apart...I moved to King Ferry and she lived in Spencer...not far but about 45 minutes...never seemed to get to see each other for one reason or the other. Sue has been ill for some time. She always had a problem with people and her self esteem was low as all of us ....Kind of a recluse after awhile. She ended up having kidney problems ,we all have had an addiction of some sort ...we did get to see each other at her grand daughters wedding this past summer. did not take the time to sit and talk to her. Now I wish I had...always in retrospect. ......Susie was going to the hospital for two to three times a week having dialysis ...her kidneys were shot...today she woke with pains in her stomach and her boyfriend called the ambulance. Just as she was being transported and Ed was leaving the house they called and told him she passed in transport.....Her daughter Heather was the one to tell everyone...There are 5 grown adult children and many grand children left to mourn her passing. I certainly hope my grandmother Pinkham was there to greet here. They were very close. Susie lived with them when she was a toddler. Until my parents were married. long story. I can not seem to cry. I am not sure why but I am glad she is not suffering and in pain any longer. I wish for my sake I had seen her more often....I will have to live with that ....but no regrets...just wishes. Some day I hope when I pass she will be there to greet me...Love you sue always have an always will...you knew that....peace for you ...lots of strawberry's and well see you soon. so many memories and happy times as well as sad but none more sad than you leaving........miss you kid....Mindy